World Cup winner Kildunne reveals body dysmorphia struggle

World Cup winner Kildunne reveals body dysmorphia struggleTo play this video you need to enable JavaScript in your browser.This video can not be playedMedia caption, "It's time for me to speak up about my body dysmorphia to give other people the courage"ByMike Henson, BBC Sport rugby union news reporter and Jo Currie, Women’s sport reporterPublished16 minutes agoWarning: This article contains reference to eating disordersEngland rugby star Ellie Kildunne says she slipped into disordered eating and unhealthy weight loss during the coronavirus lockdown as her competitive instincts and isolation from her team left her feeling vulnerable.The 26-year-old was a figurehead for the Red Roses' World Cup win last year, scoring five tries including a superb solo effort in front of an 82,000-strong sell-out crowd at Allianz Stadium in the final against Canada. However, away from the big stage, clear goals and obvious opposition, Kildunne says she was prey to self-destructive behaviour. Now she wants to speak out to help others in a similar situation."Our lives as athletes are surrounded by control - you've got to reach certain metrics on your GPS, you're chasing weights in the gym, you're trying to score the try, the goal, whatever it is," she told BBC Sport."Once that's taken away from you, I think I just tried to find that sense of control in other places."During lockdown, Kildunne was part of Great Britain's sevens squad, training for an Olympic Games which was subsequently postponed until 2021.Without access to a gym and team sessions, and with uncertainty over her playing future, Kildunne focused on running, searching out faster courses to try and improve her times over certain distances.But, at the same time, she was eating less.When she couldn't control what she was eating, Kildunne would exercise to compensate, nipping out for runs to 'earn' the meal friends were about to serve her."I c...